Everything happens for a reason and sometimes I wish I knew why. I have had a string of bad luck lately and I wish Karma would just leave me alone and go pick on someone else for awhile.
It all started back on October 23rd when we had hurricane winds come through Montana and knocked out out power. We were out of power for 10 hours before they finally removed the downed trees and fixed the lines. On October 24th, was a great day. We got our new member of our family Savage Kitty. He is just a teen with white paws and black. He has the most adorable face with huge long whiskers around his nose and eyes. He was saved from the kill list. He had a bad upper respiratory infection and one eye was pretty infected. I thought couple times we were going to end up with a one eyed cat, but it has all cleared and he is perfect for our family. We got Savage for Hayden in hopes it would pull him through his rough patches.
On October 24th & 25th, I started writing for my book 2 of It’s Now My Time and I averaged 7, 000 words in two days. I was pretty excited, then October 26th, we woke to NO internet. Somehow there was a mistake with my bill and they temporarily shut us off….UGH!!
October 30th we had our internet back on and we were sitting around watching WWE and I hadn’t been on my computer all day. It started getting late and I was tired so I headed off to bed and turned on my laptop and BAMMM!! It crashed!!! I was so shocked and stunned I just sat there staring at it!! Then it hit me…. MY FILES!! KayCee tried everything she could do to recover them herself and through the company, but she had no luck. But she did manage to find all my files between her laptop and her brothers, plus through all the emails we had sent back in forth in regards to my books and poetry.
After that week, I had sunk into a very deep depression and I am still fighting it. There is nothing worse than losing 11 years of writing. I try to pick myself up and move throughout my days in a slow shadow of human existence and I have my highs then they are followed with lows. I think what hurt the most is that they company could have gave me the option to recover my files but they didn’t. And losing 7,000 words to book 2 struck the dagger even further into my heart.
So the first rolled on by and it started looking okay, well… I judged to quickly, I was pretty will back to square one in fighting my depression. Well, during this time, I had still been trying to work and get two books published, 25 Days of Christmas Poetry which I had previously published under my old pen name Jeniann and my brand new poetry book Inklings of Ink. Then shit really started to boil over and KARMA really kicked me in the ass yesterday when I received an email from Pronoun stating they were shutting down and we, the authors, of Pronoun had until January to transfer our books to another platform!!! WTF!!! Now, what I am supposed to do??????? NOW, I am OUT of a PUBLISHER… well, FUCK ME, KARMA!!
I don’t know what I did to get KARMA against me. My daughter KayCee keeps telling me it is because we got a black cat.
I don’t know what I am to do so over the next few days I will be on a mini vacation. I am retreating away for a meditation, prayer and writing camp to let KARMA and the higher spirits talk to me and show me the direction I am supposed to be moving in.
If you would like to take advantage and download one of my books:
Inklings of Ink
She’s out of words
Tonight, for her heart is broken
the tears won’t fall
So, she leaves you this
Pen & paper
You will want her
Rule the UNIVERSE
WE shook the moon
WE made the stars implode
By our inklings
Down by the waterfalls
Searching my path
Through the journeys
Of a writer
I have my faults
Nature hears my pain
Sees me shine…